We never really know what we are doing

Have you ever done something and known exactly what the consequence is going to be? No, because we do not have that capability. Seriously though, think about it. No matter what choices we make or roads we take there will always be a surprise. It could be good or bad. I think we all go through life not knowing exactly what we are doing just knowing enough to keep going. And that’s all we can really ask for.

I don't know what I am doing with him. He is great and all but how do I tell him that I don't want to be with him, I just want to cuddle and hold hands and be all cute like. Maybe I'm just afraid to love. That's just a little cliché. But for real, I'm too afraid to love you but too afraid to let you go. Pathetic? Maybe so, but that’s just how it is.

I don't know what career path I want to take. I am really just taking classes that I am interested in because I have no clue what I am doing. That's okay though right? I'm young; I have time to figure it all out.

Really I just don't know what the heck I am doing. I am just going through the motions hoping that maybe something exciting will happen. Which seems very doubtful. I guess one day I will figure it out just not today.

We are shaped by our thoughts. . .

I have been thinking about a lot lately and I really just need to get it all out so here it is. . .

I like it here but I feel like I have grown apart from my family and that makes me sad.

I forgive you even though you never said that you were sorry.

Thank you for letting me come over and vent about my problems.

Stop being so selfish. You can't have everything your way, the sooner you accept that the better.

I wish you would talk to me.

You make me so mad.

Clean up your own dang dishes.

I think I could really like you. You are an interesting human being and I want to know you more.

That song still makes me think of you.

I'm not your mother.

You're not my mother.

Just leave her alone. She'll come around when she is good and ready.

I dread going to my choir class.

I wish you didn't get hurt. It is different here without you and I need you to come back soon.

Really I don't know why all these things have been running through my head but that's ok. And it feels good to lay it all out.

Well there it is the first post in months. . . Stay in school kids and don't lock your knees.