I miss you tonight...

"I can usually drink you right off of my mind

But I miss you tonight

I can normally push you right out of my heart

But I'm too tired to fight

Yeah the whole thing begins

And I let you sink into my veins

And I feel the pain like it's new

Everything that we were,

Everything that you said,

Everything that I did and that I couldn't do

Plays through tonight

Tonight your memory burns like a fire

With every one it grows higher and higher

And I can't get over it, I just can't put out this love

I just sit in these flames and pray that you'll come back

Close my eyes tightly, hold on and hope that I'm dreaming

Come wake me up

Turn the TV up loud just to drown out your voice, but I can't forget

Now I'm all out of ideas and baby I'm down to my last cigarette

Yeah, you're probably asleep deep inside of your dreams while I’m sitting here crying and trying to see

Yeah, wherever you are baby now I am sure you moved on and aren't thinking twice about me

And you tonight

Tonight your memory burns like a fire

With every one it grows higher and higher

I can't get over it, I just can't put out this love

I just sit in these flames and pray that you'll come back

Close my eyes tightly, hold on and hope that I'm dreaming

I know that you're movin' on

I know I should give you up

But I keep hopin' that you'll trip and fall back in love

Time's not healin' anything

Baby, this pain is worse than it ever was

I know that you can't hear me, but baby I need you to save me tonight

Tonight your memory burns like a fire

With every one it grows higher and higher

I can't get over it, I just can't put out this love

I just sit in these flames and pray that you'll come back

Close my eyes tightly, hold on and hope that I'm dreaming

Come wake me up

Oh, I'm dreaming

Come wake me up

Oh, I'm dreaming"

-Come Wake Me Up by Rascal Flatts

Some nights are better than others but tonight you're on my mind. I miss you more than ever....

Remember me with smiles and laughter

Some days I just wonder if people remember me the way I remember them or if they even remember me at all.  Like the kids I grew up with. Does Nate Patterson remember me going over to his house to play Frogger because it was my favorite game?  Does Collin Anderton remember jumping on the tramp and kicking me in the nose so hard that it bled?  Do Kami Prestwich and Allie Holman remember fighting over me at recess that one day way back when?  Does Corbin Briscoe remember chasing me around my aunt’s house trying to kiss me?  Do Tyson and Mackenzie Hansen remember telling me scary stories and trying to get me to go into the basement alone and talk to “Sally Doll”?  Does Kayla (I don't remember her last name) remember me from girl scouts?  And do all the kids in my old neighborhood remember playing night games every weekend during the school year and every single night during the summer?  I guess they aren’t kids anymore.  We all grew up and took different paths and there is nothing wrong with that.  I would just like to know if they remember me, because I remember them.

Really I'm just surrounded with players..

I knew this would happen because it always does.  I fall for all the wrong people.  I knew you were trouble when you walked in, so shame on me now.  Yes, I did just quote Taylor Swift because that song fits my situation so perfectly right now.  I realize now that you were just playing me; we had that one perfect week, cuddling and laughing and staying up till 2am talking, you even kissed my forehead and I thought that maybe you liked me as much as I liked you.   You seemed so perfect, I thought we would match.  But obviously it was a game to you because now you’re cuddling with my roommate.  And that’s not cool even if I pretend like it is.  Shame on you, shame on her, and shame on me.  I knew I should never fall for a boy that all the girls loved but I did it anyway.  My bad.